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Who am I? And why am I here?The answers to those questions I’m beginning to fear.
Am I a rose blossoming in the light?
Or am I only a left over fragrance fading in the night?
What am I? Could you tell me? Or do I want to know?
Am I just another flower that belongs in a row?
Among the gardens of flowers do I want to be found?
People staring beneath my blossoms
At the thorns and roots by which I’ve been bound?
Those roots – they are sucking in the water too fast!
Drowning my future…overwatering my past!
Oh how they’ve held me, and those thorns how they’ve torn-
My thoughts into two, I’m becoming so worn.
But go on without them, do I dare?
Pull away from the comfort that I’ve planted there?
My thoughts, my feelings…how do I show that I care?
Someone, please, rid me of all my confusions!
Take the time to show me that happiness
Is not just another one of life’s delusions...
Could you at least attempt to answer me this -
Or do I want to know?
Am I a rose blossoming in the light?
Or just another flower in the garden
Whose fragrance is fading in the night?
~written by Katrina Wylie ‘98
Even as Christians, when we look in the mirror, it’s often times “the sinner” that is reflected back. Whether it is sins from our past or sins from that very day, when they are what we still see after the many attempts at ridding ourselves of our sinfulness, we can become discouraged. Then when temptation enters into our minds, or it comes time to pick up our Bibles for the day or go to church that week, we may find ourselves acting out of a “What’s the point” type of attitude. What I’m realizing in all of this is that, although my identity questions from my poem/my past were answered when I found and accepted Christ, I still as a believer struggle with my identity. What God has also shown me this week is how that struggle has fed my struggle of getting fit.
“The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.” ~Romans 8:16
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!” ~2 Corinthians 5:17
Every time I went to grab or even think about grabbing something unhealthy, or I considered skipping my workout, I said to myself: “I am no longer that person. I am a child of the Most High God. He is transforming my mind, heart, and body. I have been made new in Christ Jesus.” I have found this to be especially effective when said out loud and/or when looking in the mirror. This, for me, has been a tangible and effective way to tackle the temptations of my old self, day by day, moment by moment. I am applying this to my Christian walk as well and every area I want to change and grow in and it is having a huge impact! Before, when I was continuing to focus on the over-weight, out-of-shape, and injured person that I’d become, I couldn’t move beyond that identity, but by surrendering my old self to God, I have been able to start shedding that identity and start shedding the pounds. I feel now I’m finally on my way to becoming the new me – the person God created me to be.
“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!” ~1 John 3:1
“Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on your new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” ~Ephesians 4:21-24
“The world isn’t our ruler to measure by and when we allow it to be we let the world be our RULER.” ~Ginny Blankenship