Saturday, February 16, 2013


From the time I was young, I set out to achieve,
In following God's plan, I did not believe.
Created to marry? Ha! That's surely not me!
A successful career women, is who I want to be!

So I strove for high marks, in all of my classes,
In a hurry to go out, and join in the masses.
On the fast track, I was headed straight for success,
There was no way I'd fall in love, and settle for less!

But then to my surprise, along came this guy,
I suddenly found myself thinking: "maybe I'll give marriage a try!"
For live without him, I'd surely not dare,
I had finally just found someone, in which I truly cared.

"I told you," said the Lord, "that you'd one day wear the veil.
For it is not your plan, but rather mine, that will PREVAIL."

I wish that I could tell you, I'd learned to follow God my wedding day,
But in truth I'd never let go, of my plan or my own way.
"Created just to marry?" I mocked God with a laugh,
"A career is what I'll have, and I'll even have my own staff!"

For the next five years, our life was all about my success,
So much so, that I didn't even know how much I'd let the rest digress.
Eventually, the day did come, in which I knew that I was lost,
I couldn't believe, however, just how much choosing my own way had cost!

Nothing, I did recognize, not even my own reflection!
How did I allow my life, to go so far in the wrong direction?
"OK Lord, I will quit then," I cried out in desperation,
"I'm done with my own way God, make me into Your creation!"

"It's not a "job" in which that I your God, had created you to hail,
I told you once, I'll tell you again, it is my plan that will PREVAIL."

For three beautiful years, to follow God is what I sought,
To love, and trust, and walk in faith, is what the good Lord taught.
Choosing to follow, in His great plan instead of mine,
Led to many blessings, unforeseen and truly divine!

Our financial future became bright, where once it'd been so dim,
God grew my faith tremendously, in my man and also in Him!
He proved to me they could provide, and so I stayed at home,
In God's plan we did invest, our time and tithes were sown.

Despite the fact our income, had been cut by more than half,
The dear Lord blessed and taught us, we're out of debt at last!
"How could this be?" I asked, surprised and in great shock,
No longer my own plans I'd follow, nor in God's plan I'd mock!

"It's not your job to understand, just what my plan entails,
It's only your job to follow me, and let my plan PREVAIL.

So walking in faith wherever He led, is what I set out to do,
And as a result my love for Him, just grew and grew and grew!
Then suddenly to my surprise, God had made me a true lady,
For I found out I was pregnant, expecting our first baby!

The labor went on for several days, and really took its toll,
But rather than handing it all to God, again I sought control!
It's been nearly four years now, since our daughter's birthday,
But never did I let go again, I've fought to control the entire way!

Exhaustion, anger, bitterness, again is what I've felt,
So why do I continue on, trying to control the cards in which I'm dealt?
Through all my pain the Lord's been there, He's never let me go,
He's been patient in loving me, even when I've ran the show!

"Alas, dear child," the Lord's said to me, "I did not make you male.
Let it go for good this time, for it is my plan that will PREVAIL!

 While the world has taught and continues to try to tell us to seek out and follow the desires of our own hearts, when we read God’s Word we gain the true wisdom and truth in the matter.  The question is- in which will you choose to believe and follow?  I’m choosing to let my own way go, once again, and it is my hope and prayer that you’ll do the same and join me in living for Him!

“For your thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. ~Isaiah 55:8

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~Jeremiah 29:11


  1. Katrina, What a gifted poet/writer you are! A beautiful story written into an amazing piece of art! Thank you for sharing your struggles of letting go and please always remember that God ALWAYS gives us another chance! And He always waits for us to listen to Him! :) Amen!
    Erin Cuomo, OBS Group Leader

    1. Yes, His patience with me has been so humbling. Thank you for your support Erin. I'm so greatful to be a part of this amazing Bible study and group of women! God is good!

    2. Katrina, you have always been amazing. This poem and life story is beautiful.
      love and prayers!